Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too?
Douglas Adams
‘What do you mean?’ Maureen’s jaws had stopped pumping. A large soggy chunk of orange pound was now stored in her cheek.
They were sitting on Beth’s diminutive back porch drinking Earl Grey, eating cake. “You’re the only person under sixty I know who invites people round for tea and cake girl” Maureen had said over the phone when Beth had asked her to come.
Now she sat squished into one of Beth’s wicker chairs, her jelly fish stomach struggling tautly against a caftan above her lard thighs. A bright orange tie—dye headband held her course hair off her big face. Beth liked Maureen but couldn’t look straight at her fatness. It embarrassed her. The delicate porcelain cup with its hand—glazed pink flowers looked like a toy in Maureen’s farmer’s—wife hands. Maureen winked over the rim at her. “I need to take you to a jazz club sometime and show you how we boogie in the 21st century”.
It was a perfect day, hot and still; the lavender, motionless, sweated under the golden sun, leaking its wild scent into the day. The only sound aside from distant traffic was the zzzz of a heavy bumblebee that mooched torpidly from head to head.
‘Just … I don’t know. Don’t you ever wonder what happened to them?’
Maureen insulted the day’s stillness with her characteristic guffaw. “Happened to them? But sweetheart, they were never there; figments of the imagination at best, explanations for unsettling mysteries at worst. Perhaps a few of them were personifications of rivers or bogs ... or high windy hills”
Beth fell silent fanning hot air onto her face with her hand as she gazed at her garden. A small white butterfly skipped along the scruffy grass. She didn’t have the heart to pull out weeds. They were also living plants weren’t they?
“They must have been real on some level” she said; “even if it they were just an energy pattern in the collective subconscious or something like that; they weren’t just stories made up to scare children with… they were really there. People left milk out for brownies and carried charms to protect themselves when they travelled. We were aware of them; even if they weren’t physically present they had enough influence to make us engage with them; hence the idea of them as etheric beings.”
She looked back at Maureen who had one thick eyebrow raised towards her moist, messy hairline. “Where did our magic go? Now it’s all strip malls and cheap soap—opera values. We no longer speak to the bees or honour the cycles of the moon or wait for the sap to rise before we harvest our herbs. I think we’ve lost touch with something wonderful”.
Maureen’s voice was flatly sarcastic; “Something wonderful like imagining little winged people in green hats living at the bottom of your garden?”
“Ugh whatever” laughed Beth, and then said, “oh that’s nice”. A cool breeze had blown through the thin hem of her summer dress, the fine white—blonde hair at the base of her neck. “Yeah” said Maureen.
The bumblebee had disappeared. The lavender heads bobbed and the grass rustled.
“People were terrified of them you know” said Maureen. “Most of the folklore involves getting rid of the little fuckers”. Beth winced at Maureen’s vulgar language. “No seriously. All the stuff about cute little banquets with lights and tinkly music in your front garden is a Victorian fantasy. Folk lore is more concerned with how to stop them… you know…abducting children… what were they? Changelings; even brownies turned vicious if they didn’t get their milk. Contact between the two worlds was never a happy event; not for humans anyway. It was something that people got away with by luck or irrational fluke.”
“I suppose… but I prefer the Victorian version. Gentle folk; Fair folk; Shining folk; halfway between angels and man; and they are more than welcome in my garden”
The breeze had picked up and was soothingly cool. A cloud of midges had blown in and spun wildly in their microcosm. The lavender heads bobbed noisily. The garden whispered.
“Uh huh” said Maureen; “Orlando Bloom is welcome in mine”
Beth laughed “You’re irredeemable! Anyway; what’s wrong with believing in something that makes you happy?”
“Orlando Bloom makes me happy.”
“You have no romance in your soul.”
Maureen looked at Beth with cynical amusement; she could be pretty irritating that way, thought Beth… half looking down her nose and smiling as though she knew more than Beth did.
“Tell you what girl, wear some glitter in your bra if you want magic in your life you’ll feel much better. It’s never healthy to believe in fantasies. They tend to dissolve when you reach out to touch them. I think we need to get you on a date sometime soon. You’re going batty like old maids do”.
Beth smiled, rolling her eyes.
“Listen, this was great, thank you.” said Maureen. I have to get going though – can I help you wash up quickly?”
“Fairies will do it for me” winked Beth.
She escorted Maureen’s huge body as it stomped through her comparatively narrow passageway to the front and drowned temporarily in her goodbye hug. They made an arrangement for the next week and Maureen went down her front steps like a great ship leaving harbour. Beth stayed to wave as she drove off in her SUV. Then she hurried back to the garden. She’d sensed something there; something more than the insects and the grass blowing in the breeze. The talk of magic seemed to have evoked … she couldn’t say what but she wanted to see.
She reached the porch and glanced over the garden. The busyness that had been there moments before was gone. The garden sat as if feigning innocence. She looked searchingly through the quietness and saw nothing. Disappointed, she picked up the tray from the wicker table, pausing to look once more just in case she had missed something; and then, in a moment of pure inspiration she whispered; “You will always be welcome here. Always and all ways.”
She didn’t see, as she turned to walk in with the tray, the little shadow that scuttled into the house behind her. Black in colour. Coal—dust in texture. Spider—like in movement. Malicious of heart.